It isn’t the same with you not here… I feel like there is so much to get done and so much going on this week…and so far I’m doing a pretty good job of holding it together - but it all too painfully points out how much I rely on you. Maybe not so much for the big things…but for all of the other things, the little things that when I am “doing it all” I realize that “all” is a lot for one person to take on.
I can tell that my personality wears on Nick a bit more when you aren’t here…when he wakes up in the morning and his first request is for me to get back into bed with him, I see that he wants me to just slow down and be quiet with him. I can tell that he gets a little more quiet when I am getting upset at things that while they may not affect him, my attitude and response to them is and does. I know too, that you are always on his mind. Every wonderful thing that he wants to share...he reminds me that we need to share with you.
I miss you. I miss what you bring to my life…even by just being here, I know that you are there if I need you…but without you here, I sense that lack of a hand to hold me. While I am the pusher you are the one that steadies me as I go rushing forward.
I love you very much and I miss you.
We miss you.
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