Growing up.

My baby boy is starting school tomorrow… I simply can’t believe that time has gone by that quickly! It seems like it was yesterday that I was up at 3:30am with my 2mos old baby boy; looking down at his peaceful sleepy face and knowing that there was no way I could go back to work and hand this child over to someone else to take care of him everyday…and now my boy is starting to walk down his own path with out me. I am not the sentimental type that will cry over him going to school…but it does bring me to tears when I wonder if I have done enough for him over the past 5 years. Have I raised him with enough manners; with enough kindness; with enough strength. Nick has such a big heart but such a sensitive one. He loves big and hurts big and it scares me to think that other influences may change that…may hurt him…and there’s not much I can do anymore. I cannot take over…I need to let my little man learn how to take the good with the bad. To filter and to let things go. To know that he is an amazing and wonderful and loved little guy. To be strong in himself and what he believes. To be a friend to everyone just as he is now… He has taught me how to be a better mother and has been such a blessing and gift! I can slowly let go…I can trust that while I am not there with him that God is watching over him…I can do this…

I love you so much Muffin Man!